enjoy.the.journey

must i do this? must i do that?

do you hear that question a lot? or do you ask that question a lot?
well, shame to admit, i do ask that question a lot, in my workplace, in my everyday life as well.
Last sunday, I’ve been reminded not to have a “slave mentality“, where I do something because I was told to do so, and I do something with as little effort as possible just to get by it. This kind of mentality will not only ruin my creativity, but worse, it will shape my character and future. This question shows that I have no spirit in doing something, that I don’t want to get best result out of it, or even worse, don’t want to put any effort to do it.

Rather than asking those question, I need to develop a leader type behavior, a leader will say, ‘I want to do this‘, this statement pictures a strong will, a desire, a vision, and with it, comes energy and creativity to draw the best result. With this statement, I can analyze what is my objective of doing things that i do, I can plan better and I can have an extra execution energy because I know I wanted to do this, I desire to do this. Believe me, this will opens multiple new creative way to solve the problem, to do the task, to reach the goals.

Starting from now, say to our boss, “for this problem, I’ve done some research, and based on bla bla bla, I want to do this, bla bla bla”. With this kind of mentality, I believe we’ll start gaining trusts and responsibilities, and best of all, we’ll start developing our creativity, our problem solving skills, our winning attitude, and lastly it will also shape our character.

Start doing our work not with just 80% of our best, not even 100%, cos our 100% will only take us to the place where we are now, but let’s start doing it 110%, giving more creativity, adding more spirit to what we do, and we’ll grow faster.higher.better!

for a bright and shining future –

haha, as you can see, I neglect recording my finance for almost 3 weeks now.. the hard part in having a finance record is to faithfuly and religiously updating the record and make it up to date,
but I think the even harder part is to start recording again after u stop recording for some time. there will be voices saying, why u bother to continue, u won’t have a perfect record anyway,
and why bother to record, u’re doing fine last week even u’re not recording ur finance, and why record, when u can have fun and need not to think about ur finance :p hahaha..

But want I want to write today is not about financial record, for the past few weeks, I kept on being reminded about how I lack of self-discipline.
Sometimes, I know what I SHOULD or NEED to do, what’s the RIGHT thing to DO, or sometimes I know what things that I SHOULD avoid, cause it will bring me harm,
but because of my lack of discipline, I just do what I WANT. Just like a little kid that have no reasoning, sometimes I do WHAT I WANT and WHEN I WANT.
Sometimes this lack of discipline cause me nothing, I can get away of the responsibility, sometimes I can run/hide,
but sometimes it can cause me some trouble, sometimes it led me to fallback and commit sin, sometimes it also cause problems or Big Problems to my friends.

But sometimes, it makes me happy, to do the things that I WANT, to fulfil the desire, is fun, I think this is why kids do the things they do hahaha ^^

I need to learn to teach myself discipline, like I heard once, praying is not to make Him fulfil what we wants, instead, praying teaches us to align “what we want” to be the same as “what He wants” in our life.

everything is going to an end. soon!

just a quick note from today’s reading..
i read about when moses met God on the mountain, and God ask him to lead Israel out of Egypt,
at some point God tells moses, ‘I am the God of abraham, I am the God of Isaac and I am the God of Jacob, I AM WHO I AM’
and imagine after u read those, a small voice inside ur head says ‘and I am your God’..
what would you feel? afraid? happy? proud? afraid because we know we are not perfect and bound to make mistakes,
happy to have Him as our God, the God who created universe and do miraculous things to be our God and Saviour,
or proud to have Him as our God, to feel honoured that He wants to be our God..
I think the best way to describe the feeling is all of the above combined into one: ‘tremble’.
We tremble when we hear ‘I am the God of abraham, I am the God of Isaac and I am the God of Jacob, I AM WHO I AM, and I am your God!’