enjoy.the.journey

okay, I know it’s a bit ugly, but I only have like 10-15 mins to edit,
so here it is, I’ll use this Christmas theme until new year.
Got lot’s of work to do, and deadlines are coming like ‘VERY’ soon.. I hate deadlines!!

nb: There’s a lot of things going on in my mind lately. It’s been 1.5 years, and I’m going to make another decision. From what I can see now, next year is going to be a really new year for me.

have faith, be strong and courageous. It’s not going to be valley forever! like an eagle, you WILL soar up in the sky above the storms, in MY time, not yours.

Heard this words when I’m on the train this morning and then after, I took the wrong bus (I only look a glimpse on the bus number, it ends with 4, i thought it’s 54), then when the bus didn’t turn as expected, I just realize that I took the wrong bus (124). Instantly, I want to alight at the next stop, (I think I can manage to walk from that stop to my office, I will sweat, but I’m confident that I’m capable of walking), but then a soft voice telling me to be calm, and just stay put. And so I decide to stay on the bus, see where this bus would take me to. And after a couple of turns, I see where this bus is headed, and I know that this bus will pass a bus stop that is near to my office! (forget about sweating, woohoo!). And this little accident serves as a reminder for me to have faith, I might have done wrong, but have faith, HE is more than capable to drive me to the place. Things sometimes not happens as what I have planned, and my timings might be a bit off, but have faith, for HE, MY GOD, IS AWESOME! ^^

it’s not going to be valley forever!

Grrr… I would like to brag about today!!! !@#$%^&*()
Today I do FEEL a LOT, it’s fascinating how I can feel different types of emotions within this single day, ANGER, FEAR, ANXIOUS, WORRY, PAIN, SAD, HAPPY, HATE. In a way, this is a good sign, showing that I am 100% human capable of emotion, but I really don’t mind if I skip them all except for the HAPPY one.
Enough about emotion, now back to decision, I make two or more decision some time ago, and things have been okay until lately. Lately, I need to force myself to know that I’ve made the right decision, that it’s for the best, and that I need to stick to that decision and do it happily, with enthusiastic spirit, not grumbling and resentment. Grrr, at times I really just feel like quitting, and don’t care about responsibilities, just do what I want, when I want. At times like these, I find it hard to be positive, but thanks God, I still think and know what’s the right thing to do. Hff..

Okay, last night I read Nehemiah 8:1-18, and verse 10 really struck and strengthen me! it says, “.. Do not grieve, for the Joy of the LORD is your strength!!!”. And this verse close my day last night, it really strengthen me, and gives me serenity for the day! Thanks God for listening and being real to me!

sometimes, to continue living takes more courage than dead

remember this post?

well, I’ve just made another decision today, and I hope it’s a good decision. I know that I disappointed some people with my decision, and that I was wrong to keep this decision until very last minute, I’m really sorry for that, to have waste their time and efforts. It’s just that it really was a good opportunity, but I finally decided that the timing was not right, I don’t think it’s best for me to take the opportunity now, and I believe (hope) that when the time is right, there will be another opportunity that pops out.

One thing that I like from this experience is that I’ve been very encouraged to know that there’s someone out there that really know my background and have the desire that is almost the same with me, it was very encouraging and I feel blessed. I know that he’ll make a good boss.

I learned a lot from this experience, to make it in points:

1. I need to improve my English! (need to get use myself to have a conversation in English)
2. I need to read a lot about things happening around me, not all, is just that I need to keep updated about my surroundings and especially about my technical fields.
3. I need to sharpen my vision, where I want to be and want to be doing in another 5 years.
4. To be more decisive, from this experience I learn that by being indecisive I will disappoint people’s expectations.
5. I follow my conscience today, let’s see where this’ll take me.

for a bright and better future!